It’s hard to study when I have so much responsibility. I’m going to snap from all the pressure. But my sister needs me, and Mommy’s always worrying about things…so I’ll try to be calm for everyone. Tenth-grader Malky Tepper’s grades are flawless and her homework is impeccable, but inside, she’s drowning. Deep down she wishes she could trade places with her cool, carefree cousin Chayala. Malky’s parents just want the best for her, but their expectations feel like a crushing weight, and nobody really sees her pain. She’s built a world on perfect scores and controlled smiles, held together by a secret compunction to count things. But what will happen if she starts losing count? In this honest, eye-opening novel by author and therapist Mirel Goldstein about navigating the world of intense teen anxiety, follow Malky on her raw journey toward self-acceptance and inner peace.